My last week with my sweet little girl flew by so fast! I felt like I didn't even get to accomplish anything I wanted to do. Jeff got to work from home on Thursday and some Friday so it was nice to have some family time together. On saturday, I dropped off Jeff at Georgia Tech in the wee hours of the morning and made my way to Carrollton for recruitment. A pleasant surprise was my very good friend Kelly, who is currently at Samford Law School. She popped in to see recruitment and stayed the night with my other friend Brandi and she got a few Claire minutes that morning! It was so wonderful to see her, she's such a blessing and I really miss her! Anyway, we went to recruitment on Saturday and Claire slept the entire time. Then we picked up Jeff around 9:00 pm that night. Yes folks, that's over 12 hours of tailgating. My husband was horse from screaming at the game and celebrating Georgia's loss. Sunday was a calm day around the house and today we went to Rich and Marci's house for some lunch. We got to see Jimmy, Ardis, and Era (who grows like a weed!). It was nice to have family time! I did feel bad because Claire cried A LOT. I swear she doesn't have colic, she was so fussy because she fights sleep and she has a little gas in her tummy. When we got home, we unwrapped a HUGE surprise in her diaper and after that she was a really quiet baby.
So here's the kicker...
I go back to work tomorrow and I'm super nervous. I hate the idea of leaving Claire, even though I know she'll be in good grandma hands. I think I'm more upset because she'll start doing fun things, and I won't be around to see them. I'll miss out on her growing up. If I had a million dollars I'd stay at home and bask in her cuteness all day long. Until I make my millions, I have to go back to work. I'm interested to see how my life will work out- balancing my duties, wants, needs, and family.
This is how I feel sometimes...
People tell you not to feel guilty about having a messy house or looking crazy (messy hair, spit up all over your clothes, no make up, and HUGE bags under your eyes). No matter how many times people say that, it takes a while to get to the point where you accept being messy and smelly. I'm slowly learning to let go of trying to be in control of everything. As long as Claire is healthy and happy, I'm happy- even if I'm super ugly! Say a little prayer for me guys, I'm going back to the crazy zone. Only 11 more weeks until Thanksgiving break! (Yes, I'm counting down)
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